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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe

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I'm trying to hold it together

So, it's almost four in the morning and I can't sleep. Instead, I'm downstairs in the computer lab surfing the Internet and listening to music. Yeah, I'm pretty cool.

I felt better today, except for when I first woke up and right now. Just like this morning, I feel kinda sick to my stomach. Oh, and did I mention yesterday that I look terrible? I have these dark circles under my eyes. I don't even know how many people told me today (yesterday?) that I looked tired. A few days ago I even shut the light off in the bathroom because I didn't want to see myself, I looked so horrible. I don't understand why. I've been getting btwn 7 - 9 hours of sleep each night. Maybe I just need to eat better. Or stop eating all together.

Cutting sounds really good right now. Luckily (or sadly) all my razors are in my room and I don't want to rustle around too much in case I wake up my roommate. But I guess I'll try to get some sleep before the sun rises...

3:57 a.m. - 2006-08-26

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self - destruct

the rings around your eyes they don't hide

that you need to get some rest

it's all right to make mistakes

you're only human

inside everybody's hiding something...

even at a time like this when you're crawling on the floor

think the pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all...

pick your poison:

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alexiaaa
anadoll
bloodyme
brokenmirror
cut-deeper
cuttersclub
dissolving
enurta
ethereal-red
figmentatus
icut
just-fine
lightgrey
lithorian
lovelyashley
miss-k2
msjessica
onecutabove
pollys-pins
purgingme
rejazz
star-soul
sorrowshadow
suicideinc
x-t-o-r-n-x
xxplaydeadxx
bandchick182
miedema2002