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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe

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Yet you feed us lies from the tablecloth

Here's an email I sent my boyfriend yesterday:

I don't know if I can do this anymore. I don't even know if I want to do this anymore. You say you think about me all the time, you miss me, you love me; well, you sure have a strange way of showing it. You say what I think matters to you, but it's becoming more and more clear that what I say or think doesn't mean shit to you. I have enough to think about without worrying that you are doing shit again, or that you are running to the city all the time [to get weed and sometimes other drugs], or that you're lying to me. You make me feel like I don't matter at all, and that's not what a relationship is about. You make me cry, and I hate crying. But I can't help it. I love you, but you don't respect me and you don't respect how I feel or what I think. So forget the anniversary, forget calling me, and forget seeing me - I just need some space to figure out how I feel about things. This should make you happy - now you can spend all the time with ***** that you want to, although that's probably what you're doing anyway. I hate sending this in an email, but I honestly don't want to talk to you, and I don't have any way to get ahold of you since your phone is shut off and you are never home so I couldn't even if I wanted to. Just consider us to be on a break. I'll probably talk to you shortly after I get out of school, which is the first week of May.

Was it a bitchy thing to do? Yes.

Was it the right thing to do? I don't know, but I think so.

I would write more, but I think I'll go smoke instead...

5:05 p.m. - 2007-04-14

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self - destruct

the rings around your eyes they don't hide

that you need to get some rest

it's all right to make mistakes

you're only human

inside everybody's hiding something...

even at a time like this when you're crawling on the floor

think the pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all...

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