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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I need you to know I'm not through the night Hmm. It's been a long time since I've updated/added an entry/whatever you want to call it. School let out for the summer in early May and I went home. Didn't do too much - worked, slept, partied...some drinking, some drugs...the usual. I turned 21 this summer, tho, so that was somewhat exciting. But summer has come and gone and I am now back in school, twenty-five pounds or so lighter than when I left, and ten pounds lighter than when I entered as a freshman. Everyone's been telling me how good I look, but I'm still a tub of lard. More to come off my stomach, my arms, my thighs...but I do look better than I did in May. I feel better about myself, and I feel much more attractive. I'm going to keep going, although I lost focus over the long weekend with too much eating and drinking and not enough exercise. But I think I'm back in control now. I saw Liz for a short time on Sat. She pissed me the fuck off. I kind of forgave her, but I'm kind of still pissed at her. She and her boyfriend broke up, and she got really drunk and kept calling him, etc. That part didn't bothe me so much as when she asked him if he was going to pick her up. I just walked away. I know that breaking up is hard, but I've tried to be there for her. She just keeps saying that she's fine even though she's obviously not. She talks to him every night and always wants to go see him, claiming she's going to see "everybody else". She doesn't seem to understand how much it hurts to realize that the person who is supposed to be your best friend would rather be with their ex over you. She doesn't even call me. It sucks. Anyway, I left the party without even saying good-bye to her. She called me later that night, wasted, and we talked but who knows if she even remembers. And I haven't heard from her since. Well, I guess I'll try to go back to sleep. I need to make up for the four hours I got last night because I couldn't fall asleep then either. Then onto another glorious day of classes. Wonderful. 1:36 a.m. - 2007-09-06 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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