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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe

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I'll kill myself by holding my breath

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why don't I understand math? My friend helped me yesterday for FIVE FUCKING HOURS on my math review sheet for the final I had today. We went over problems again and again until I understood and could do it myself, and then I get to the final today and it's like I've never seen these problems before in my life. And the sad thing is I think the first six were supposed to be really easy. It wouldn't bother me so much, but I actually studied and I know I didn't do well. I don't know why I bother - at least if I don't study and I get a bad grade I can blame it on that. But when I do study and I get a bad grade, well that just makes me feel like a fucking stupid loser. I'll probably still get a 'B' overall because the teacher is a really easy grader, but what the fuck am I going to do next semester when I have applied math with a different teacher?

And I was so fucking optimistic before the final...

4:14 p.m. - 2006-05-03

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self - destruct

the rings around your eyes they don't hide

that you need to get some rest

it's all right to make mistakes

you're only human

inside everybody's hiding something...

even at a time like this when you're crawling on the floor

think the pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all...

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