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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe

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Looks like I'm not getting better

Yesterday was the 11-year anniversary of my father's death. I didn't write about it because I didn't know what to say. I still don't. People always say that everything gets better with time, but I don't think that's true. At least, it's not true for me. Every year that goes by I seem to miss him more and more. I think it's because he died when I was so young that it didn't really affect me, but now that I'm growing up I realize that I will never know my father. I will never know what kind of man he was. I will never know what he would think of my boyfriend. I will never know if he would be proud of me or not. And it makes me sad, and every year it just makes me sadder and sadder to realize that I am missing out on this aspect of life that most people take for granted. How is time supposed to heal that?

5:44 p.m. - 2006-10-03

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self - destruct

the rings around your eyes they don't hide

that you need to get some rest

it's all right to make mistakes

you're only human

inside everybody's hiding something...

even at a time like this when you're crawling on the floor

think the pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all...

pick your poison:

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alexiaaa
anadoll
bloodyme
brokenmirror
cut-deeper
cuttersclub
dissolving
enurta
ethereal-red
figmentatus
icut
just-fine
lightgrey
lithorian
lovelyashley
miss-k2
msjessica
onecutabove
pollys-pins
purgingme
rejazz
star-soul
sorrowshadow
suicideinc
x-t-o-r-n-x
xxplaydeadxx
bandchick182
miedema2002