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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe

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Cut my life into pieces...

*sigh*

I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to curl up in a ball and listen to music and stare at the wall. But I can't. Too much homework. Blah.

I kinda wanna cut. It's just so tempting. And it would make me feel better just to see the blood and feel the pain...but I can't. The school found out that I cut, and I've had two meetings with the RD of my dorm already and am on "probation". If I get caught cutting again, I could be kicked out of my dorm or "asked to leave on my own terms." It's such bullshit. It's my body - why can't I do what I want. But oh well. I guess I'll be a good little girl and follow their rules...for now.

5:17 p.m. - 2005-11-30

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self - destruct

the rings around your eyes they don't hide

that you need to get some rest

it's all right to make mistakes

you're only human

inside everybody's hiding something...

even at a time like this when you're crawling on the floor

think the pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all...

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dissolving
enurta
ethereal-red
figmentatus
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just-fine
lightgrey
lithorian
lovelyashley
miss-k2
msjessica
onecutabove
pollys-pins
purgingme
rejazz
star-soul
sorrowshadow
suicideinc
x-t-o-r-n-x
xxplaydeadxx
bandchick182
miedema2002