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All that I have found in reason, is reason just to not believe

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I'm coming undone

I cut myself again last night. Well, they were more like scratches really. Four nice little lines on my arm.

Why do I insist on doing this? I was just lying in bed, trying to sleep and thinking about all the shit that's been going on with school, with my friends, with my car, and before I knew it I was thinking 'Just one little cut. That's all it will take to help you feel better and fall asleep. Just one little cut.' And of course once I get the idea into my head nothing can make it go away except talking to someone or actually cutting. It was, like, 2 in the morning so I didn't want to call anyone, and the three girls I live with don't know. I thought about calling the number that my old RD gave me, but decided not to because I don't really want all of that to start up again. So I got a razor, went to the bathroom downstairs in the lobby and cut.

It's like it's a game, and I'm daring someone to catch me.

For maybe the first time in my life, I don't want to play anymore.

9:08 p.m. - 2006-09-11

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self - destruct

the rings around your eyes they don't hide

that you need to get some rest

it's all right to make mistakes

you're only human

inside everybody's hiding something...

even at a time like this when you're crawling on the floor

think the pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all...

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